It’s been 6 months since my last post.
To say my life has completely changed in those past six months would be a big, fat, giant understatement.
For starters, I graduated from college. Lucky for you, I saved you a cheesy post on why my college experience was monumental, amazing, learned a lot about myself, etc. It did and was all those things, though.
I also got some new roommates. And while it’s been an adjustment, they’re real gems. Somehow I managed to find the only roomies on the planet that will pay for the roof over my head, groceries, and other necessities. (Thanks Mom and Dad).
And since those two big changes, I’ve just been trying to embrace this extremely strange stage of life. A stage filled with a little working, a little soul searching and a lot of goal setting.
But let’s back it up a few months to when my world was completely rocked and flipped upside down with one phone call. A trip home, a week full of hospital waiting rooms, a graduation with friends as stand-in parents, and thousands of tears and prayers later – my mom is living proof that you can get through anything, and be stronger because of it. And you thought she was tough on the professional tennis circuit… this is a whole new level. So she’s dealing with difficult challenges daily, but it’s beautiful to see how far she’s come. Perspective.
I know and have always said that family is the most important thing we have. Fact. But as I was getting excited about where my career could take me post-grad, while also struggling with leaving my friends from school and the home we built for ourselves there, God smacked me in the face to remind me of that fact. Everything felt so emotional, and strange; graduating college, moving back to the city I grew up in, not knowing exactly what was next. I’ve never been great at dealing with the unknown, although I do have a love/hate relationship with change; it both terrifies and excites me. But if I look at all of that, the common denominator of it all is me, me, me. I read this quote today: “If things don’t seem right, put yourself last, and everything will fall into place.” I was put in a situation where I learned that statement couldn’t be more true, and I’m incredibly thankful to have learned that lesson. I know that, right now, for all of the other people in my life, but also for myself, I’m exactly where I need to be.
I’ve never believed 1 Corinthians 7:17 & the following quote from Francis Chan more than I do now.
And don’t be wishing you were someplace else or with someone else. Where you are right now is God’s place for you. Live and obey and love and believe right there. – 1 Corinthians 7:17
It is true that God may have called you to be exactly where you are. But, it is absolutely vital to grasp that he didn’t call you there so you could settle in and live your life in comfort and superficial peace. – Francis Chan
So what does this all mean? God doesn’t call us to be comfortable, He calls us to trust him and take risks. While I’m embracing exactly where I am, I also know my 20’s are for learning and growing. So I’m working to better myself every day. To be greater. To take risks. Because as the saying goes, “you can’t steal second base, and keep one foot on first.”
I’m positive that things aren’t just working out, but are being divinely constructed.